craving.

i'm dazed and cranky. i'm craving for a good, better, best, and ample dose of ms. austria-carandang.

Oh wifey!

<3

problem

i have two problems:

1. falling hair
2. inconsistent sense of dedication

could both be related to stress?

moments of self assessment

i've been swamped with work lately. currently awake since 10am yesterday with 2-3 hours of sleep. I HATE DEADLINES. ugh!

so i'm two days away from passing my resignation letter. i've got four job positions to pursue when i get off - all with better compensation. i've thought about this and decided that i need to break free and try other opportunities. BUT why does it feel like ouch?

leaving this job, this job i've had for two years, my first job, is scaringly similar to breaking up.

resigning would mean leaving my friends and my comfort zone. it would take another set of adjustments. it would rattle my world again.

but kasi naman! i know that if i stay, i'd be forever wondering about what ifs and lost opportunities.

tsk eips, fucket, it's time to be a grownup.

Putangina i love this day.

FML.

So i'm back! :D

Yeheeeeey! i'm back. or at least will try to. i've been lost for a long time. actually, plurk lang yung inuupdate ko. kasi mas madali nga naman. a lot has happened. as in a lot.

dom and i are doing great. better than ever.

...my sis is peeking at the monitor! hmp!..

anyway, yes, dom and i are doing great. we're better inlove nowadays. i spend every other weekend at her place, and so far, happiness naman. hihihi. however, ngayon bad trip ang asawa ko sa kin. parang tinatamad daw ang boses ko kausap sha. hindi naman ako tinatamad. pero sana di na sha tampo bukas. ganun talaga un. madaling magtampo. masarap naman sha suyuin kasi sobrang sweet pag bati na kami. hehehe.

my dad's back here so i need to go home every other weekend at laguna naman. shempre, bonding with the family. though my dad and i, we never really talk, as in talk. just simple conversations. kanina my mom found a yosi stick in my jeans' backpocket. she was washing it kasi. aun, pinakita pala sa tatay ko, kanina, over dinner, naopen up. hindi ko tinanggi. sabi ko akin un, at alam ko naman ang ginagawa ko. sabi nila, masama daw yun, blah blah. wag daw ako gumaya sa iba. sabi ko, hindi wala akong ginagaya. actually gusto ko na nga sumagot na personal decision ko magyosi, na alam ko naman ang effect nito sa kin. na malaki na ako, blah blah. e kaso yung kid sis ko, iniiba nya talaga ang topic. hahaha. ayaw nya akong mabadtrip e. alam nya na pabadtrip na ako.

minsan ang magulang hirap sila umintindi. oo, narealize ko yan. dapat kasi, iniintindi rin nila yung point ng mga anak. then being parents come second. kasi nagiging bias sila pag pagiging parent at uunahin. tama naman di ba?

tomorrow work na naman. i just pray na matapos ko na yung dapat kong gawin. di na puede, i must get my mojo. kelangan na talaga! i've been stressed lately about work. pressure is there. araw-araw. i've been thinking about resigning and finding other work. i know i can find one better that what i have right now. kaso iniisip ko, wala pa akong savings talaga. i can't do the things i used to do before. ngayon nga wala na akong time para sa mga bagay na gusto kong gawin. but tomorrow, that will change. will do whatever i need to do. number one na jan ang exercise. hahaha.

one thing i dont like about work e some people there na may attitude problem. alam nyo un, people who judge and malign their officemates, i so so hate that.

anyway, that's all for now. i need to hit the sack early. para madami akong energy bukas. i can't wait for the weekend. i'll be spending it with doms. yiheeeee!

back.

namimiss ko na ang pagbblog. nyeta naman kasi ang work panira ng virtual life. not only virtual life but lovelife, social life, family life. lahat na. bakit ba kasi napunta ako sa ganito. huhuhu.

oftentimes, i think about leaving. but when i think about what's in store for me. i lose the guts.
i need to plan everything.

for the mean time, laban kung laban.

Alert.

Chatbox is temporarily locked until further notice.
My compu-whiz friend is currently doing investigations.

Weekend with babe.

I spent the whole weekend with my baby in her place - for the first time. :D I'm not totally over with the "hiya" shempre, but I feel more comfortable now. I don't think about nonsense things na, but instead i think about this -> "i'm with her first and i'm fuckin' here to stay" :D

One thing I can't deny is the fact that everytime we're together, I'm so happy and contented that I couldn't ask for more.

The only bad thing about this weekend is that my baby isn't feeling well the whole time. Boo. Super super kawawa naman. And my actions are limited - as much as i want to take care of her the way i want to. I'm sorry baby. I pray that things be better the next time.

I'm praying hard tonight that she'll feel well tomorrow. I hate it when she gets sick because I can't be with her all the time. Add to that the fact that I can't kiss her or hug her because it hurts. ='(

Please please please get well soon babe.

Promise me that.

iloveyousomuch!